Day 10 Learn from the past

Learn from the past.

Day 10: The past is behind you and no matter how badly things went there is nothing you can do to change them. Whenever you feel negative thoughts about the past come up, replace them with positive thoughts about the future.

We cannot change our past no matter what. 2 years ago was the beginning of a sad time for me. I lost my Papaw, My brother in law and my best friend Bonni all in 6 months. I also went through a horrible separation and lost my business during this time. I held on to so much of this pain for so long. It created baggage that I did not need... but to me, It was easier to stay in pain and suffer quietly. What in the world was I thinking! I have 2 darling God Sons, Kody and Ty Ty. I have so many memories from each one of these people. They BROUGHT something to my life that I needed. They were all strong people. Andy was kind, a good daddy, a good husband to my sister, funny, happy, held a good job. My papaw, well he was a man, and I mean a man...one that came from a time when a handshake was still worth something, he was so kind. I only heard him raise his voice once and he was telling a story and got loud because he was tickled! He was in his garden or fishing every day. He loved my family so much. And Bonni...Bonni was STRONG. Cancer may have gotten her body, but it did not get her spirit. She prayed with the faith of a child, she was not scared. She told me she was not scared from the first minute. She was my best friend for 17 years. I cant bring them back, but I can look at how they affected me. I cant change I lost the tattoo shop, or got a divorce. But I do know I have the tools in life to make sure none of that happened again.

Back to yesterdays positive...forgive yourself and LEARN FROM THE PAST. Need to forgive yourself again after today's positive? Go ahead...Forgiving is the first step to healing!

God, Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

Love,

Asia

 My beautiful Bonni